So Tobey just will not leave me alone. Sent me flowers yesterday and an e-card today. I don't get it. For the last year and a half he's done everything in his power to push me away and now that I've finally given in to that, he's done an about face. Well, I can't tolerate being treated the way I was treated. Done.
The funny thing is, one of the things that Tobey did to me that I really didn't like is he made me feel stupid. I am not stupid. I have a flaky memory and sometimes I can see in my mind what I want to say but it just doesn't connect with my speech center, so it comes out sounding strange. Its almost like there's a cross connect in there somewhere and I have to do some lateral thinking to come up with the word/name whatever. I bet there's some 'syndrome' or 'condition' term to explain this, but I really don't care to know it. So if you know me and you know how I'll be talking then fall silent as I search for words, you know what I'm talking about now. Well, this is the reason Tobey called me stupid. That and sometimes I just plain forget things. I swear he thought I was doing it on purpose when honestly wasn't. Oh well.
Now I have some new friends, which incidentally I met because of Tobey. He introduced me to the Star Wars Fan Force forums which I signed up on. I naturally looked for the stuff that happens in and around Toronto so I lurk on the Toronto Long Line forums. I decided to meet these people last year at SFX, and since then I have gone to see several movies with them and been adopted in to the Bad Wolves costuming community. The feedback I've heard so far is that I'm surprising people with my level of intelligence. After hearing so long that I'm stupid, I'm dumb, women are evil, manipulative, shouldn't be allowed to drive blah blah blah, this is like an oasis in a desert.
I am so much better off, as will my bank account be.
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Woohoo! Go you! :) :) :)
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